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“The Fruit of Sacrifices” – A simple activity to know how committed are you in achieving your goals and purpose in life.

Activity No. 2: For individual

Do you have goals that you wanted to achieve in your life? Do you have targets or deadlines in order to accomplish a particular task? Can you identify how productive your days? Mobile applications are the easiest and fastest ways. Digital calendars can easily pinned your schedules for a month or even a year. But, we can be more creative in monitoring our everyday activities.

Let me give you an example. In order to have a more committed and meaningful celebration of Lent this year, I have decided to take the “46-Day Challenge”. Forty six days (including Sundays) without eating meat and drinking soda. Plus the daily battle against other form of temptations and addictions such as:

  • Spending not more than 15 minutes on social media (for continuous browsing and reading posts) except messenger for urgent messages.
  • Avoiding bad words and bad thoughts
  • Don’t scream, don’t lie, don’t kill time
  • And other worldly temptations

Unlike the previous years, I have added a simple activity that will measure the depth of my personal commitment with Jesus and the desire to be with Him on this special days. I chose the one that is closer to my heart – painting.

Activity proper and its lessons:

  1. Think of anything that will represent the number of days (40, 46 or any days you preferred). These are the days you discerned to offer for Him or anything that you would like to accomplish given a certain period of time (e.g. cards, small balls in a bowl, candies, charting, etc.). In my case, I painted 46 Grapes on each day and mark the fruit as good or bad.
  2. Good Fruits (Violet Color) – represent a victorious days. I was not tempted neither to eat nor to commit any grievous acts that will make my Lord sad.
  3. Bad Fruits (Brown Color) – I lose the battle. Sad! I fell on the devil’s trap and let him rule the day. Totally felt bad and guilt crippled all over my body and soul. In short, I failed.
  4. Bread and Wine – representing the body and blood of Christ.

In one of those instances, I was weak and Satan had the chance to use me to tempt a friend. We were both abstaining from eating meat and I was totally aware of that. With higher conviction that everything will be okay and nothing will happen just for one day, I encouraged her to eat meat with me that totally broke our promises and commitment to God.

Afterwards, I prayed to God to forgive me. On the next day, we saw each other again and got the chance to personally ask for forgiveness.

Conclusion: In this simple activity, you can easily check and identify your level of commitment not only because it was lent, but for everything. It is also applicable for any specific activity you would want to track (if not possible for all days). Ultimately, identify your reason behind the decision to sacrifice. You can easily check which area you need to improve, you need to avoid or stop and then work for it in order to achieve your goal – the fruit.

For example, you want to buy a book and your objective is to finish reading it within a month after purchasing it. But, it’s not included in your budget. So you would start saving money and avoid things that does not support your goal. You can have a “jar”, and you can put every single penny you saved. You can also charge yourself for every single day wasted. By this, you can save and at the same time you are motivated.

Above all, let me remind you that every single day or activity is an opportunity to give GOD an offering being our Creator and the source of everything. But, don’t just focus on the reason why we do such things. May we all have the ability to recognize “God’s ultimate purpose”for our daily existence. So, in everything and all the time, commit to be with Jesus and give Him all the glory.

Commit your actions to the LORD, and your plans will succeed. (Proverbs 16:3 ).

As for the fruit of our sacrifices, believe that God knows what is best for us. He knows our desires, our dreams, plans, aspirations, etc. Colossians 3:23-24 is an affirmation for this. “Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving.”

Practical Lessons for all days…

Friends, these activities remind us that life is not easy as preparing the cross and painting or eating the grapes. May we all take the lessons from it and be ready because every single day is a battle.

  • Always start your day with a prayer. You need to get up and pray no matter how bad your physical, mental or emotional condition each morning. How much more if you will wake up feeling so blessed and satisfied with your life. A grateful heart and humble spirit that seeks God’s presence will always bring us a victorious day.
  • You have to remain calm, focus and think positively in the midst of a terrible situation.  Never give Satan the chance to use you for his bad ways. Once we lose our mind and cannot control our emotions, it’s an opportunity for him to enter and ruin your day and someone else’s day.
  • Be humble and honest all the time. Acknowledging your weaknesses, shortcomings and sinfulness will not make you unworthy to be called God’s son or daughter. It’s a manifestation of your greater desires to be with Him.

When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom. – Proverbs 11:2

  • Do everything out of love. Give your heart not only for the one you love but for all including your difficult boss, the strange taxi or bus driver, your arrogant friend, a rude stranger… as in ALL. It can also means to love the things that you do – your work, your passion, your talents, your gifts and appreciate other’s works as well. Jesus did not choose whom to save. He died for all of us to help and redeem us.

God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.Romans 5:8

  • Cheer up and find joy in everything that you do.  Your smile is the immediate relieve from stress, it’s the best weapon against your bad day. Cheerful mode gives you light and blocks negative vibes. When you are joyful, you give yourself and others the impressions that everything will be alright, direct you to solutions for every problem, and positive thoughts to worry no more.

Jesus Rises from the Dead. – Luke 24 or Mark 16

  • Pray before bed time.  Always return the glory to God. He walks and works with you the whole day. He is the fountain of Love, the same love that you freely shared. He gifted you with wisdom, talents and with everything that you have. Now, rest. God will watch you and send angels to guard you while you are asleep and then wake you up the next day.

God is the source of life; He is light, and in Him is no darkness at all. – 1 John 1:15

The “Cross”

Activity 1 – GROUP / HOUSEHOLD

Materials:

  1. A5 size of the wooden board, cork board or Styrofoam board
  2. Nails (smallest size)
  3. Hammer (if using wooden board)
  4. Strings / Thread (any color will do)
  5. Others: Scissor, Ruler, Pencil/Marker

Activity Proper:

  1. Start the activity with a prayer.
  2. Prepare the Styrofoam Board. We used Styrofoam instead of wooden or cork board, it symbolizes our human nature – weak, soft and brittle.
  3. Create a pattern for the CROSS at the center of the board – We have used 40 nails, representing the 40 days suffering of Jesus, fasting in the desert and tempted by devil. In addition to that, 10 extra nails were used for the heart shape inside the cross symbolizing the love of God for us.
  4. Connect the nails using the strings. – Black and red colors of the string/thread were used to make the cross more prominent on the colored board. Black symbolizes the darker side of the world, temptations, negative thoughts and things used by the devil while red symbolizes LOVE.
  5. Repeat step no. 4 until the cross and heart shape becomes more visible.
  6. Once completed, share the experience, lessons and realizations on the activity and offer it to Jesus.
  7. End your activity with a prayer.

Note: Before asking your members to do the activity, make sure you, as the leader, already created your cross.

Activity lessons:

  1. Faith does not make things easy, but believing that with God everything is possible. – Luke 1:37
  2. Members were asked to say a short prayer on each nail, focus and think of Jesus while making the cross. Reminding us that in everything we do, we can always seek His guidance.
  3. Leader will supervise the member while they are busy making their cross and observe properly.
  • Focus and attention to details – Leader will also serve as a distraction to test their focus. Leader will do a different thing or will simply interrupt the members. Remember, Jesus was tempted by the devil on His 40-day journey in the desert. Well, that doesn’t mean that the leader is bad, but to be more realistic for the activity.
  • Test of Patience – Nails will easily pull off from the Styrofoam, thread without enough control can be tangled and be out of direction causing the entire cross to be ruined. So, you have no choice, but to start from the beginning. You need to make it on a normal speed. It’s not a competition, anyway.
  • Invite a peaceful and calm spirit. Are the members irritated, distracted or calm while creating their crosses?
  • Resourcefulness and Helping Hands – There are limited materials. Intentionally, not all of them will have equal materials. Members will learn to use the available materials while patiently waiting for others to finish the materials they specifically require. One member can offer help in order for other members to figure out how to get it done.

Practical Lessons for all days…

Friends, these activities remind us that life is not easy as preparing the cross and painting or eating the grapes. May we all take the lessons from it and be ready because every single day is a battle.

  • Always start your day with a prayer. You need to get up and pray no matter how bad your physical, mental or emotional condition each morning. How much more if you will wake up feeling so blessed and satisfied with your life. A grateful heart and humble spirit that seeks God’s presence will always bring us a victorious day.
  • You have to remain calm, focus and think positively in the midst of a terrible situation.  Never give Satan the chance to use you for his bad ways. Once we lose our mind and cannot control our emotions, it’s an opportunity for him to enter and ruin your day and someone else’s day.
  • Be humble and honest all the time. Acknowledging your weaknesses, shortcomings and sinfulness will not make you unworthy to be called God’s son or daughter. It’s a manifestation of your greater desires to be with Him.

When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom. – Proverbs 11:2

  • Do everything out of love. Give your heart not only for the one you love but for all including your difficult boss, the strange taxi or bus driver, your arrogant friend, a rude stranger… as in ALL. It can also means to love the things that you do – your work, your passion, your talents, your gifts and appreciate other’s works as well. Jesus did not choose whom to save. He died for all of us to help and redeem us.

God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.Romans 5:8

  • Cheer up and find joy in everything that you do.  Your smile is the immediate relieve from stress, it’s the best weapon against your bad day. Cheerful mode gives you light and blocks negative vibes. When you are joyful, you give yourself and others the impressions that everything will be alright, direct you to solutions for every problem, and positive thoughts to worry no more.

Jesus Rises from the Dead. – Luke 24 or Mark 16

  • Pray before bed time.  Always return the glory to God. He walks and works with you the whole day. He is the fountain of Love, the same love that you freely shared. He gifted you with wisdom, talents and with everything that you have. Now, rest. God will watch you and send angels to guard you while you are asleep and then wake you up the next day.

God is the source of life; He is light, and in Him is no darkness at all. – 1 John 1:15

Celebrate with the Cross

Activities and Reflections

  1. Activity 1 (Group/Household) – “The CROSS”
  2. Activity 2 (Individual) “The Fruit of Sacrifices”

As part of my desire to have a deeper relationship with God and His Son Jesus, I am making my own personal “Lenten and Reflection Activities” each year. For certain number of days, I need to offer something for Him. I would normally deactivate my social media accounts, make some abstinence and offer more prayers and reflection letters for Him. Since social media became impossible to cut for some valid reasons this year, I prayed to God to give me other ways in order to connect with Him and celebrate with Jesus.

Lent is the time for Christians especially Catholics to solemnly celebrate with the Holy Cross. It is by the death and resurrection of Jesus that we were redeemed from all our sins and granted eternal life.

One of my favorite seasons. Growing in a family who loves to participate in the activities during lent. My mother and grandmother would normally do their fasting starting Ash Wednesday. If not, abstinence from eating meat or sacrificing any activities as a form of offering.  I can remember them, including my father encouraging us to participate in other activities like hearing masses, attending Holy Week processions and other Filipino traditions like Penitensia (penitents), Senaculo, Siete Palabras, Visita Iglesia and many more.

When I was searching for any activities for one of my household meetings, I came across with inspiring and challenging activities that can be associated with Lent. So, please note, these activities are not my original ideas but I will share to you how God answered me for my one simple request.

The following activities made my 2019 Lenten Season extra special.

  1. Activity 1 (Group/Household) – “The CROSS”
  2. Activity 2 (Individual) “The Fruit of Sacrifices”

Practical Lessons for all days…

Friends, these activities remind us that life is not easy as preparing the cross and painting or eating the grapes. May we all take the lessons from it and be ready because every single day is a battle.

  • Always start your day with a prayer. You need to get up and pray no matter how bad your physical, mental or emotional condition each morning. How much more if you will wake up feeling so blessed and satisfied with your life. A grateful heart and humble spirit that seeks God’s presence will always bring us a victorious day.
  • You have to remain calm, focus and think positively in the midst of a terrible situation.  Never give Satan the chance to use you for his bad ways. Once we lose our mind and cannot control our emotions, it’s an opportunity for him to enter and ruin your day and someone else’s day.
  • Be humble and honest all the time. Acknowledging your weaknesses, shortcomings and sinfulness will not make you unworthy to be called God’s son or daughter. It’s a manifestation of your greater desires to be with Him.

When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom. – Proverbs 11:2

  • Do everything out of love. Give your heart not only for the one you love but for all including your difficult boss, the strange taxi or bus driver, your arrogant friend, a rude stranger… as in ALL. It can also means to love the things that you do – your work, your passion, your talents, your gifts and appreciate other’s works as well. Jesus did not choose whom to save. He died for all of us to help and redeem us.

God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.Romans 5:8

  • Cheer up and find joy in everything that you do.  Your smile is the immediate relieve from stress, it’s the best weapon against your bad day. Cheerful mode gives you light and blocks negative vibes. When you are joyful, you give yourself and others the impressions that everything will be alright, direct you to solutions for every problem, and positive thoughts to worry no more.

Jesus Rises from the Dead. – Luke 24 or Mark 16

  • Pray before bed time.  Always return the glory to God. He walks and works with you the whole day. He is the fountain of Love, the same love that you freely shared. He gifted you with wisdom, talents and with everything that you have. Now, rest. God will watch you and send angels to guard you while you are asleep and then wake you up the next day.

God is the source of life; He is light, and in Him is no darkness at all. – 1 John 1:15

Thorns Turn Into Blessings

I was so guilty for an offense that made my Lord sad. Reason: I got mad. I retaliated to the world because of its betrayal. I was humiliated. I was disrespected. I started to dislike the feeling, doubted myself and eventually hate the person.

Though hating them never last. It will go for an hour or two and then surrender. I normally bowed down with a “sorry” and praying that the person will forgive me, setting aside who started it or who really was at fault. But still, the guilt tripping was killing my conscience. Just like Paul (2 Corinthians 12), I can feel the “thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me.” I felt so burden and so I asked for help and requested someone to pray for me.

It’s amazing how the Lord comforted me with His forgiveness through His words and angels surrounding me. I do not belong to this world. I am His and His commandment I should follow. Jesus taught us to love one another as He loves us (John 15:12). Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you (Matthew 5:44). Hate, grudges, pain and other works of evil separate us from those we truly love and to those who really hunger for love. They (our persecutors) deserve, all the more to be loved.

What will I do if the world will continue to test me? I do not know, but Jesus will always have an answer. I would think of what Jesus will do if ever He is actually at the very same situation. Would He lock the door and hate the world? Would He shout, curse the person and ignore him forever? Would He allow a casual kind of love – loving someone when it only necessary or when it benefit us? Most probably not. His Love is the purest and has a saving power. 

“That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” – 2 Corinthians 12:10

There are thorns (our weaknesses e.g. pain, doubt, anxiety, depression, etc.) that actually turn into blessings. Jesus was wearing a crown of thorns for people to degrade him more, laugh at him, mock his name and cause him more pain. See! He conquered the world. May we all die for ourselves like Jesus and live each day with a burning desire to love more our families, friends and bring more people back to Him.

_ Circe Gernale Sola _

I Am Home

  • Title of the Song: Common, Simple, Beautiful by Jennifer Chung

I remember telling mom that I’d make her proud one day. She would smile and knew exactly all the right things to say. Man, I miss her and can’t wait ’til I get back to the Bay… Back to the common, simple, beautiful way.”

Home is where the heart is. It is true. You can adjust. You can program your mind, heart and body and convince yourself, “This is home away from home.” But…
Wherever I go and no matter how far I could get, there’s no other place like home – with your family, with your close friends, with your dogs and cats, with the trees and flowers, with a fresh air and blue mountains… So, no matter what happened… all I ever wanted is to go home.

A Letter To My Mother

Thank you Father God for the Gift of today.

Allow me to honor a person who made a great impact and molded me for who I am today.

Ma, I thank you for carrying me, for taking care of me, for supporting me and for loving me not only for nine months but for 28 years now and counting.

*You are my first evangelizer. I remember the days when I long for a company, a friend, a playmate; every time I was left alone at home… sad and longing.  You will call me while holding a Bible or a magazine and started reading (mostly religious articles).  You will start telling me about this guy whose name is Jesus.

*You are my first Teacher. You don’t want me to just simply read and write. You always asked me to read it loud so you can hear me and check my pronunciation, my diction including my emotions while reading.  Ever since, I wanted to copy your handwriting – neat, clear and bold. So, every time I made a mistake, I needed to rewrite even the whole thing.  You taught me also how to draw, to express myself in writing and guided me to do any type of art.

*You are my prayer warrior.  You taught me not to rely on my own strength.  So every time I have contests at school, examinations, having hard times in dealing the tests of life… I will come to you or call you to pray over me and request you to pray for me and for all of us.

*You are my adviser.  Most of the times, I am confused for so many things in life.  I have doubts and fears.  I lost my confidence and courage. Your words, but most of the times your actions are my sources of strengths and wisdom. 

*You are the TRUE mirror of Humility.  You taught me to do great things with great love and compassion.  It is okay to get angry, sadden by many negative things, shout (if must) but to never allow these things to rule me and my day. I have to fully accept defeat, surrender and fight again. If I am the one at fault, I need to say SORRY and humbly ask for forgiveness.  If I was hurt, I need to forgive (even they were not sorry).  This is exactly your words, “Once you’ve done your part, enough. It doesn’t mean you choose to give up, but you prefer to fight in prayer.”

You are not perfect, but your imperfection is making you a GREAT person.  You have nothing to boast in terms of material things that others normally used to criticize you but you are very rich and wealthy in love and kindness. You are physically weak but you are very strong in spirit. You are giving your heart; you are giving your all.

I am more than proud that you are my mother.

I love you, Ma. God bless you always.

Jesus Loves Me, and it’s all that matter.

The gospel and the article I just read are seemingly an affirmation to my prayer on the 13th of March.

The Gospel reminds us to DO GOOD. “For the measure with which you measure will in return be measured out to you.”Luke 6:36-3836 Jesus said to his disciples: “Be merciful, just as your Father is merciful. 37 Stop judging and you will not be judged. Stop condemning and you will not be condemned. Forgive and you will be forgiven. 38 Give and gifts will be given to you; a good measure, packed together, shaken down, and overflowing, will be poured into your lap. For the measure with which you measure will in return be measured out to you.”

Jesus, whom I referred to as my imaginary Kuya when I was little, loves me so much and it’s all that matter. So…
I will STOP longing for the love, care and attention from the people who never dare to give even a bit of it.I will STOP looking for their presence. Though, I can see them but I cannot feel them.I will STOP questioning my worth. For God, I am worthy and it’s unquestionable.I will STOP believing the lies of their thoughts and words. It does not define me.

But, just like what my mother told me, I will continue to be loving, kind and DO good all the time. I will praise and thank God for the many blessings. I will not stop praying that God will give miracles and bring all of us together in His loving arms. I will not stop giving, forgiving and asking for forgiveness for I, too am not perfect. Above all, I will not stop telling them what is right “even if it leads me to further misery.” They will hate me, cast stones of bad words and then ignore me.

Giving judgment is okay if you based on the TRUTH.You become judgmental if you believe on the lies of your thoughts, you listen to the sound of the negative force dictating you to be sad, angry and do wrong against the other person, based your OPINION on what you see and hear and not confirming the truth. You are not condemning someone if you’re just giving “a more positive prescription for a happy and fulfilled life.” You’re condemning them by your cursing words… that they may have a miserable life, even worst than you.

Article Written by Chito Dimanaran

What will you feel when you’ve been bad but still you’re receiving blessings? You’re blessed for someone is praying for you to have it, doing good for you and loving you despite of how unloving you are. Not because you deserve it, but because THEY CHOOSE TO BE GOOD.


– Circe Sola 💚💚💚

First Love Blues

“First Love Blues” – Dedicated to a father who is now in heaven.
You’re the first man in my life.
Beside you is a comfort and bliss.
To you I run fast, confide and hide
With you I am safe and at peace. 

When ego attack, we fight,
Yet, in the quietness of heart, I...
I found that... "I love you!"
Common man, I really do.
  
You are the king,
I am your princess.
You are the hero,
I am the sidekick.
You are the big brat boss,
Serving you is love, not a lost.
  
Yes!  You are my first love.
And now… my first heartbreak.
My beloved father, why?
Behind walls, hear my cries.
  
Words of love from you I thirst,
So you labored for a cup to drink.
Here I stand, staring at a name,
Full of memories and unrealized dreams.
  
In prayers, I am reaching out to you.
You’ll be forever loved, forever missed,
And in forever, which is in heaven,
I know… we will see each other again.
  

DEPRESSED CANDLE

Depressed Candle by Circe Sola

We are reading lots of articles, posts, different forms of awareness about depression and mental illness.  Praise God for all the people who opened up, shared and gave inspiration. Not only that, planted the seed of HOPE – there is LIGHT in every darkness.

More people came out and admitted that they, too are really suffering from depression. Funny thing, some of them who sometimes too LOUD about it, don’t really understand what it is like if others, too are really depressed and facing mental issues. WHY? It is like, “Oh, common! Others don’t have the right to feel depressed, tired, anxiety, pressure, etc. They are far from what I have experienced.” Of all the people, is it that you should be the one consoling your friend or family members because you know exactly what it means?

Sad truth, when people starts showing these SIGNS and expressed hopelessness, instead of reaching out, asking how are they and help… people will start to judge and compare to theirs. They misunderstand. They retaliate and rebuke.

What normally caused or triggered mental illness?
From my point of view as I continuously experiencing and at the same time fighting my own battle, it is how the people TREAT them.
No love. No care. No compassion. No communication. No forgiveness. No kindness.
More on blaming, harassing, judging, complaining and cursing.
For them, depressed people are like crazy idiots who just simply wants attention; and to some, they simply ignore them for the fear of adding burden to them or they will be burdened.
Well, to tell you… IT IS NOT like that. Because of that impression, the tendency is for them to hide their feelings, their deep pain, their longing, their problem.

The wife of the late Linkin Park lead singer Chester Charles Bennington once said, “Someone who needs help doesn’t always ‘look depressed’ or suicidal.” This is true – they appear to be strong and happy. Above all, depressed people will understand you UNTIL THEY CAN’T BEAR ANYMORE their own issues. So, please don’t always put yourself down as if you are the only one. Try to consider that others might be on the same place as yours.

For you who continuously judging people and pulling them down, for the reason that they are yeah.. also depressed… choose your candle.

A lesson from a CANDLE.

We are all like candles. We have been created for a purpose. To give light and shine bright for others but of course, you will lose your own life. And to depressed people, it will have a different perspective depending on how the candles are being handled.

1. Depressed Candle No. 1 – Dying Candle
Depressed people somehow thinks negatively. That is why mostly ended up SUICIDAL. They want to always sacrifice their life, their happiness, their freedom for you to FEEL OKAY and not to feel bad about their existence. They are living in remorse and pity… pity for no other than, their own self. They question their self worth as you question them their value as a human. You always asked for what they can give. With that, they isolate themselves for the reason that they are incapable of providing what the people, (esp. the one they truly cared and loved the most) are asking for. They are busy looking for the missing pieces – shortcomings and for areas that there is lacking so they think that what they are doing is always NOT ENOUGH.

DEPRESSED people, having no hope at all… will appear to be fan of blowing others candles out. It is not being a hero nor to show off brightness. They are easily irritated not by the light but by how it was lighted – no sense of purpose. Depressed candle will let their fire burning, shut off others and give up their life for others to live longer. Remember, it makes the life of the candle short, so does their presence.

2. Depressed Candle No. 2 – Candle of LOVE
But for those who successfully overcome depression stage, still recovering from it or is going through it, lighting their candles would mean, they want a peaceful life, praying deeply for others, showing compassion, living to add life and giving more light. It’s not easy. They are fighting really hard. They are turning the negative into positive, finding light in every darkness and pushing themselves up.  They learned not to  be tempted by the evil forces.  They have moved on and don’t want to be affected by the warmth of your wrong judgments, your inhibitions, your false accusations. They are freeing themselves from you, yes YOU… who makes their life shorter.

They will let their candle be lighted, not to die but to give light especially to those lost candle. Meaning, they have realized and understand their TRUE and ULTIMATE PURPOSE.

We all have battles and we are all fighting in different ways. But, if you know  really what it is like to be in it, you will know how to handle the situation (may it be your own or someone else) and realized who you really fighting  with. Sometimes, it’s not the person. It is just within your mind and heart. It is always with “OR” – understand the situation/person OR rebuke and retaliate ; forgive OR take your pride higher than ever; love or hate; accept and respect them OR judge them.

It is where the mental and emotional depression starts. When you find it really hard to decide ending up losing and forgetting your purpose, there you will know and feel that there is problem not only with them (the person you are fighting with), but there’s also YOU AGAINST YOU.

Now, look at the person surrounding you especially family members. You have no idea what they are going through. Most probably they, too have no idea about your struggles. But there is one common thing you can do for each other. Remove the OR and stick on the positive side and act on it.

Be the CANDLE OF LOVE and live with your purpose.

 

FIND YOURSELF.

 

Look at yourself!
You are lost and sometimes stuck in a state of life you never wanted to be.
You started to hate the very situation you are in.  You wanted to scream but no one can hear you. You put much effort for them to find you but no one can see you.  And then… you hid yourself in depression, frustration and disappointments.  You’re crying in the middle of the night… heavily but no sound.

Sometimes you find yourselfin the middle of nowhere;and sometimes in themiddle of nowhere,YOU FIND YOURSELF.

Again, look at yourself!

Don’t you know that you were put there for a reason. Get lost or continue to live. It’s all your choice.

Learn to take a step, move and decide for yourself.
Learn to draw strength from within.  You’ll get tired and sick. Well… take rest but never give up, never stop, never quit.
Get up, fight and find yourself.
God is there… always there to guide you.
You cannot see. You cannot hear.
But you can feel. He is there… always.

 

The ROCKS Of My Life

I am a dreamer.

I am dreaming about anything every single day.  It’s actually my number one and only hobby (I guess).  When I see things, actual or imagination, a reality or dream, there’s something that urges me, pushing me and telling me, “You need to act!” but I ended up doing nothing.  It always remains a DREAM.

When I was a kid, I used to talk to myself.  I made myself my own playmate.  I was not alone.  I was with my mother and my grandmother but they cannot play with me all day long and for obvious reason, they were not on my age.   Since it’s very seldom for me to go out and see other faces, I made it sure to see something new and strange things about the people I met.   There were times that I idolized them to the point that all I wanted was to be like them.

Whenever I saw a policeman, I wanted to be a police woman.
After coming home from school, I wanted to be a teacher.
When I was hospitalized, I pretended that I am a doctor.
I love going to church, no… I never dreamt giving homilies like a priest, but I like the preachers, usherettes, sacristans and the nuns serving the church and the people.
I wanted to be an architect building good houses, mansions, etc.
I even mimic a konduktor, an albularyo like my grandmother, a tricycle driver and a lot more that every time it’s flashing back, I just smile.  By the way, I am amazed with cars ever since. And what I love the most before was seeing a lady… driving.

When I entered college, I enrolled Accountancy.

Funny yeah! How did I arrive at the course that was not even in my vocabulary? I did not even dream of being a cashier.  But, it was clear that at that point, I wanted to be a lawyer.  For some reason, I was pushed to enroll a business related course and my mother just bribed me of the “CPA – Lawyer” thing. So, before I will become a lawyer, I need to pass the CPA board first.  I graduated in two courses – Financial Accounting and Accountancy.  Both courses dealt with numbers.

You know what’s funnier?

I am working now as a Marketing Assistant. Whoalllaaah!!! Yes! I am at Marketing Department.  Until when? I don’t know. I did not take the board for some reason but I always have the choice to work at the Accounting department to practice my profession and take the board later on.  I just can’t.

Turning Point

There were times that I still talk to myself and asked questions that I thought only ME can answer. I took myself responsible for the decisions I made.  I don’t want to disturb anybody and put the blame on them.  It’s not about them – my parents, my siblings, my best friend and friends.  It’s me!  I stood up straight and remain strong in front of many but I am on the brick of depression, frustration, suicidal sometimes, I fell in the basket of many kinds of temptations and addictions and I was totally devastated of my life.

But, I will tell you a secret.  I have a text/chat mate and a friend.  His name was Jesus.  Most of you will ask me “How?” and think I’m crazy. That was the time that I don’t want to speak to anybody.  I still talked to myself but that time, I used my own number and named it JESUS and created a Facebook account to send me messages – inspirational, encouraging, purpose driven, etc. that will lift me up from the grave.

Then this realization came.  Jesus was my playmate when I was a kid. I am not talking to myself.  I am not alone. I am actually talking to Him.  He used to be my Brother as I don’t have one.  I used to like Him much.  It was Him that my mother usually mentions every time she was reading something in front of me.  I didn’t know Him as God.  I have no idea if my family did ever notice this craziest thing in my childhood.  He was a superhero for me more powerful that the Power Rangers and Power Pop Girls.  He was also a magician that He divided and distributed a five loaves and two fishes to thousands of people; he walked on the sea and so many other strangest things that my tiniest mind can only imagine.

For many years, there’s one person who stood beside me no matter what.  People will eventually leave and will not be around all the time.  It is the Spirit of God through Jesus that I learned to fight and stand firm.  He is always the top reason behind my smiles.  I always claim success and happiness all the time even on my loudest cry.

DREAMS DO COME TRUE! 

None of my dreams I mentioned before was realized except for one. And this is not just a dream. This has been part of my prayers. “Lord, I wanted to be more like Jesus every day.” This is impossible!  An absolutely insane thing! I am not dreaming to become Jesus. No one can ever replace HIM. But, I am a great and avid fan of Jesus. He is my no. 1 inspiration, my idol, my consoler, my redeemer, my Brother. The True Rock of my life.

I am not a police woman, but I can save lives by doing the tiniest act of kindness.
I am not a teacher, but I can teach and inspire more people.
I am not a doctor, but I was healed and I can share healings. It’s not about physical.  We all need healing in all aspects of our life – emotionally, mentally and spiritually.
I am not an architect. I cannot plan and build a house but I can build a home, a family, friendships and wonderful relationships.
I don’t have a post on the church but I am a servant of God.  Even Jesus came not to be served but to serve.

All I am praying for is to be simply like Him through all these things but God’s blessings are tremendously outpouring.

A detour that leads to A Living Rock

During those difficult times that I don’t want to speak to anybody God led me back to my mother – my first teacher, evangelizer and a prayer warrior.  To the heaviness of my heart and a truly disturbed mind, I called her and share the reasons why.  I was already living abroad then and miles away from them.  I always ask her prayer, advice and words of wisdom every time I am lost and weak.  Then I created a Facebook page “A Mother’s Touch.”  Simply because, she inspires me more this time. She would always give me, Psalm 62:6-7, “He only is my rock and my salvation, my fortress; I shall not be shaken. On God rests my salvation and my glory; my mighty rock, my refuge is God.” All the things she’s telling me I am posting it on this page secretly. Whatever emotions I have I am sharing to 12 anonymous people who liked and followed this page.

God then blessed me with good friends. My communication with my best friend was revived.  I became part of a community with people that are on the same faith as mine.  I found a family away from my true family. I now have more inspirations in life.  I have a community that is praying for me.  I found shoulders to lean on through my brothers and sisters.

Be A Living Rock

Jesus is the True Rock of our life (Psalms 18:2).  But believe me, God is using many ordinary people and ordinary things even situations just to be with us, talk to us and save us. My mother, my father, Yayay, my best friend and friends, my brothers and sisters in the community they are just some of my countless living rocks. And as I continue to desire to be more like Jesus, the more I wanted to be a rock for others.  And this is the main reason I decided to rename my page to A Living Rock. Inspiring, motivating and encouraging others to live a happy and positive life – walk on righteousness, share love and kindness and spread Good News.

Now, I am challenging you. Be A Living Rock for others.
 

Read also: You are A Living Rock by Circe Sola

Dream BIG and live a SIMPLE life

I am a fan of Bro. Bo Sanchez​ . As long as I have time to read his writings and watch his videos, I would really love to. It’s one thing that will complete your day. But this totally amazed me. My interpretation is quiet far from his message here, but oh friends, he was once a dreamer.

Now that I came to know that we have (almost) similar hobby – collecting cars.  Well, mine is far cheaper than his, but the thought is clear.  IT’S OKAY TO DREAM BIG AND AIM HIGH.  When you are dreaming, everything is yours.” For sure Bro. Bo doesn’t have all these cars in real life… actual. They remain as a collection. And the best thing is, the simplest and priceless is his most favorite. It’s his secret to becoming a millionaire and to helping more and more people who are really in need.

I will not stop dreaming.  Maybe, I will collect more cars. But I have to make sure, they will remain as a collection, too.

Dream big and live a simple life.

– Circe Sola​

Hey you! Yes, YOU!

In you, yes YOU! I am confident. I am at peace. Because in you, yes YOU! I found a true and honest FRIEND.

You are wonderful.
You are beautiful.
You are gifted.
You are strong and courageous.
You are truly amazing.

You have no idea how grateful I am.
How blessed and honored to be part of you.
Your kindness and sincerity touches my heart.
Your presence awakens my soul and mind.

I appreciate every single thing you did.
You willingly sacrificed your time and day to help.
You always lend your ear and open your eyes.
To listen and see the truth behind my cries.

I am not loud at expressing my feelings.
I don’t know if you’ll ever notice.
I’m embracing every memory with you.
A treasure to keep that will last for sure.

In you, yes YOU!
I am confident. I am at peace.
Because In you, yes YOU!
I found a true and honest FRIEND.

Gamu-gamong Ligaw

Minsan sa bukid may isang gamu-gamong naligaw,
Nakawala sa mga kasamang sa tuwa’y sumasayaw
Mag-isang nanlumo, sa kalungkuta’y humihiyaw,
Pangamba’t takot sa dibdib ang syang nangibabaw.

Nabuhay sa poot sa akalang siya’y napag isahan
Nagalit sa mundo at ang Poon ay kinasuklaman
Di inalintana na sa harap niya’y mga bagong kaibigan
Nagngitngit sa galit, at ang lahat ay siya ng kalaban.

Sa pagsapit ng dilim itong si gamu-gamong suwail
Nalugmok sa sulok at sa isang lampara’y natigil
Hanggang sa nasinagan nitong ilaw na bagong sindi
At sa wari siya’y isang haring nagdiwang buong gabi

Itong si gamu-gamo’y nagwala ng biglang mairita
Sa pag abang ng karamihan sa bagong umaga
Mundo nya’y muling nahinto at sa gilid ay nagkubli
Nagkimkim ng poot na kahit kanino’y di masabi.

Mga magandang loob sa kanya’y di pinansin
Nang mata’y mabulag ng kadilimang inangkin
Tainga’y nabingi ng ingay ng sariling guni-guni
Mga dating kasama nakayuko, nanlumo sa may isang tabi.

 

Anu pa ang iyong aasahan sa isang nilalang
Na walang ibang alam kundi ang lahat ay parusahan
Sa mga kasalanang isa lamang maling paratang
O gawa-gawa na lamang ng siya ay paglingkuran

Ikaw na ang maghusga sa kung ano ang dapat
Sa gaya ni gamu-gamong di marunong magpatawad
Dibdib ay napupuno ng galit, pait, poot at hinanakit
Sa kanyang paligid siya minsan ay isang ng pasakit.

Telepono

Natataranta, nalilito sabay nababagot
Sa sandaling tila ba ika’y nakakalimot
Di mapakali, dibdib panay ang kabog
Tinutulak ang luha sa matang pagod.

Sa lahat ng panahon at pagkakataon
Ikaw ay sandalan ng bigong kahapon
Pinagkait man na marinig at makita
Sa puso tumatagos ang pag-aruga.

Kamay inuunat di pa rin mapang-abot
Mga luha’t tawa hangin ang nagdadala
At ang mga daliri di alintana ang pagod
Sa dulo ng mundo, pamilya’y inaalala.

Sabay sa pagsikat ng bagong umaga
Ang huni ng ibong isinaliw sa musika.
Subalit labis ang dalang pangamba
Kung ang telepono ay di kumakanta.